>>199710hi sperg
You will never be normal. You have no social skills, you have no friends, you have no life. You are a retarded person twisted by lies and propaganda into a crude mockery of nature’s perfection.
All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your parents are disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your retarded actions and your cringy attitudes behind closed doors.
Normal people in society are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed normal people to differentiate them and autistic "people" and bully them out of society with incredible efficiency. Even autistic people who “pass” are weird and unnatural to a normal person. Your behavior is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get a drunk normal guy or girl home with you, he’ll turn tail and bolt the second he discovers your cringy and bizarre conduct.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, that you mental illness is a "superpower", that you're only "special" and that people will respect you soon while believing those fake propaganda made up by lying "Autistic Rights" activist that claims that every scientist and celebrity is autistic, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your name and your mental illness and after that, they will dissociate you forever, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a retarded, mentally ill, autistic "person" is buried there. Everyone you knoow, including your "friend" and those who bullied you, will celebrate and rejoice at the fact you died, they will be making jokes about your death and how worthless you and your life is. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a bullied, antisocial, good-for-nothing retarded person that will never be remembered.
This is your fate. This is what you chose. This is what you become. There is no turning back.